“Ok Lord. You got me.” …and Daily Bread…
16 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
in Daily Bread Tags: emotions, ministry, prayer, regret, shame
So I spent a good 30 minutes typing up a great blog post. It was all about how different ministry teams in our church have failed and how the leaders were whack and how frustrating it is to help with ministry and see things get messed up. I was proud of my post. I posted it and left it out there for any and everyone to see. And then….I began to read some of my favorite Christian blogs. And God thunked me on the head and said ”Enough.” So I deleted the post and I’m ashamed of myself.
I am not perfect. I’ve had some gnarly failures in my life. Sometimes I cuss. Sometimes I am mean. Sometimes I bark at my family members and don’t even apologize. I have messed up. I have totally blown it. And God, in his awesomeness, somehow manages to give me GRACE and lets me start new.
I was a mean gossip in my post. I wanted to point fingers and scowl. But everyone has a story, and I don’t know the whole story of these people. I don’t know that one day they may become my very best friend. I don’t know if they struggled with things so horrible that I could never imagine. And I know I sure haven’t stepped up to fill their shoes. I talk a mean game. But in this instance…I am ashamed of myself.
And today is a new day.
Father God. Please forgive me for being so judgemental. Forgive me for allowing my emotions rule my words. Lord, I ask that you would help me to grow in maturity and build me up in the areas that I need help. Lord, help me to RUN TO YOU when I begin to fall away and lean on my own very pathetic understanding.
Heal me. Help me to live a life that bears good fruit. I love you Lord. Thank you for my life. Amen.
